Do you have a high EQ ( Emotional Quotient) ?
As a writer, I am sure that you answered ‘yes’, since writers are skilled at understanding and describing human emotions.
Have you ever felt an emotion that you could not name ?
It has been almost six years since I developed an ‘unnamed’ emotion which sticks in my psyche.
After two priests were removed suddenly, without explanation, by his Excellency the bishop, many local parishioners, in shock and anger, fled the parish, and did not return. No shepherd came looking for us.
The replacement priest,newly arrived from Africa, was given strict instructions not to mention anything about the priests’ disappearance.
A close family member of mine reacted to this chaos, secrecy and cover-up in the church by becoming a member of another world religion. He said that it made him feel more comfortable because it had no “priests”.
That is when my ‘unnamed ’emotion, concerning this matter, developed. It is a kind of numb feeling ; emotional numbing is common to trauma survivors. In my case it is probably best that I can’t “feel” this emotion, otherwise it could overwhelm me.
I have no comment to make, expect that I pray daily for more patience, and for my faith and trust in God to grow, even when I don’t understand what God is doing.
I do know that God works through trials and difficulties in our lives, and ultimately we grow spiritually from what he allows.
In the meantime, I will leave my ‘unnamed’ emotion, and the events that led to it, in God’s hands, and sometimes , I will read Matthew 18:6 ( You know, the verse mentioning millstones and the sea.)
God sees. God knows. God will act.